Without your Love...

I've given away my heart
So it could be torn into pieces..
She left me with the feelings of
Betrayal and being forgotten.
I'm so in love, yet so alone, with some
days thrown away.

Feeling her absence hurts the most
My constant Urge to call is almost
taking over, while on the other side,
my cycle of feelings starts with rage.
Slowing going into sadness, rage again,
desperation, devastation, and finally denial.

Every morning I open my eyes to
emptiness.
Seeing a long black hallway with nothing
in between.
This so-called love has taken over my
life being me distracted.

Days pass by and now my emotions are
going crazy.
Leaving me no choice but to vomit.
To empty my pessimistic thoughts.
To stop thinking my life is over.
To stop my tears every night from falling.
To stop feeling like my heart has
shattered into fifty pieces.

The hardest part of moving on is the
jealosy on top of all my misery.
But soon enough I'll go to bed
realizing I survived this struggle.
I need to escape my depression to
continue breathing.
And regain my strength to live again.