Darkness has covered the environment and seems as it is never going to be a day again.. I am in my room remembering all those pasts of my life.. evaluating my life myself.. A smile appeared in my face in that darkness but nobody could see and it has no value. It's always a different kind of happiness, a different joy inside me.. a different feeling in my heart when I remember my angel.. It's an untold story of myself.. It's incomplete n i know it has no end but still the few moments of togetherness make me laugh alon.. make me smile in the darkness. "Oh! Why I think that can't be happen " asked my mind.. and my heart replied, "Some false hope makes u happy n it's not your fault to keep those false hopes".
"It's just a dream which will spoil ur career.." my mind argued. " The career without happiness is just nothing more than a living with dead body", explained my heart. I have always debate of my mind n heart but none of it has ever won.. they are equal n strong enough in their own statements... She is like that.. Her eyes which i can't even desribe but I have seen a dream n now which she has closed and my dream scattered... Her smile the best happenings in my world which i always wants before my eyes.. but it's now somewhere far from me.. still the imagination rocks in my mind as if I m with her.. Though We are millions miles apart still she has strong appearance in my heart as she used to be... Her every soft touch.. Her tender presence.. Her every voice are generating like a reel in my mind.. I can feel her touch though she isn't with me.. I can hear her voice echoed in this dead night.. and I feel so comfortable, so happy, so vivid... I know some relations on earth doesn't long last but the moments remains always forever...
"My Angel".. This is the word which I have given her.. I don't know why I liked the word "Angel" best describes her.. In my childhood when my grandpa used to tell the story of angels I used to dream I will meet such angel oneday N I will never let her go away.. My grandpa used to tell those who are good and polite.. sincere n lovable.. honest and have good sense of humour.. they willl only get angel... I thought I got My angel.. yeah I got her but she wasn't mean to be mine.. May be I have seen her in dream... She came into my life but not being mine.. Alas forgive me grandpa I was not that good so My Angel went away... I was not enough honest so My Angel went away... I was not lovable so My Angel went away...
But "Angel" You will always remain so close to my heart running in my mind everytime.. My Angel... May be it's perfect you n am not.. but I have right to love u always forever.. N I will be loving you always forever...
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